Peace

I cannot believe the words in front of my eyes.  I blink; once, twice, and yet the image doesn’t change.

My heart is racing and breaking at the same time; a feat that before today I would never have thought possible, and the tightness in my chest means that I have to fight for each and every breath.

You kept your pain so deeply hidden; I never knew, never suspected.  All this time you were dying inside and yet the world didn’t have a clue.

My face is wet and it is then that I realise that I am crying; but my tears are too little too late; you will never see them.

I fall to my knees, my body too weak to hold me upright, as I read the words again; still not believing the finality contained within them.  I wish that you had spoken to someone; I wish that you had let someone in; I wish that you had trusted me.

Rest in peace my darling; I hope your demons will now leave you be.