I can be quite unforgiving, I know that, and sometimes I hate myself for it. Most of the time though, I believe that I am quite justified in the way that I behave.
If I make an effort towards you and you don’t make any effort back, well don’t be surprised if I cut you off completely. If you offend me, or try to dress something up as a joke that I don’t find remotely funny, don’t be surprised if I ghost you.
I hate being let down by people. I don’t see why I should bend over backwards for you and get nothing in return. Perhaps my expectations are too high, but I always believe that what you get out you should definitely get back. I don’t mean that I do things in order to get something in return, but I do feel that I should at least receive an acknowledgement of what I did.
I also get put out when I get rebuked when you misunderstand something I said. No, I’m not referring to my joke comment above, but when I say something that is perfectly clear and you either don’t read it properly or just choose to be offended.
I haven’t got time for idiots.
If you are in a mood and you snap at me, another thing that shouldn’t surprise you is if I go quiet on you. I will be polite but abrupt, and I won’t be drawn into banter or any other form of conversation.
If I text you and you don’t reply, don’t bother texting me for something you need days or weeks later. I have a very long memory, and I can bear a grudge longer than you can hold a memory. I have discarded loads of people from my life, you will be just one more.
I prefer my own company. Sometimes I might feel lonely, but I prefer it if I don’t have to rely on people. People let you down again and again and again, so you chose not to deal with them. Life is easier that way.
I Grieve... 