Wishes

I keep taking myself away so that I can be alone.  I can’t keep up the happy front 24/7, and I don’t want to break down in front of anyone.

I wish I could tell you the way I feel about you, how you have always made me feel, but I know that if I do you would more than likely run screaming in the opposite direction.  You take a long time to trust someone, to let them get close to you, and I have worked so damned hard to get to this point with you, I am not prepared to do anything to risk it, to risk us.

You are still my friend, I just wish you were more.