I knew it had to come to an end sooner or later. She’d always come first, no matter what. After all, you were married, I was just your bit on the side. The other woman. God that hurts.
‘You can pack your bags, take a walk
Throw your hands in the air, refuse to talk
Swear to be damned, it was all a bad dream
Leaving me with a silent scream’
You stripped my home of every part of you. No explanation given, no explanation needed. An ultimatum; me or her. She won. I always knew she would, there was never any doubt.
‘You can take the photos off the walls
Leave empty echoes in the halls
I still see your face when I look around
I see your lips move, but there’s no sound’
The little bear clutching a heart with the words ‘I Love You’. The photos of us that you kept hidden in your wallet. The cigarette lighter. All the things I had given you, cast aside. I found them in a bin liner. Is that how much I meant to you?
‘You can throw away reminders of you and me’
At the moment there’s no one but you; you’re in my thoughts all the time. But one day. One day someone will come and love me as much as I thought you did.
‘I know some day I’ll break free, from thinking about those used to be’s
Even though you’re long since gone, there’s little things about you that keep hanging on’
I keep going over the whys and wherefores, the if onlys. But it’s no good now, there’s no going back, no changing things. If only.
‘It’s no good to dwell upon it they say’
Since you left I’ve been busy. I’ve cleaned the place from top to bottom. All the cobwebs are gone. Who am I trying to kid? You come to me at night.
‘I’ve found a thousand ways to make it through each day
Then the sun goes down, and the shadows grow tall
My mind goes to you like it’s nothing at all
‘Cause you’re still in my heart
You’re still in my heart Baby
You’re still in my heart’
You hurt me real bad. I guess you know that. Maybe you meant to, or maybe you’re hurting too.
‘You can take my heart, tear it apart
But you’ll never, never take your memory
‘Cause you’re still in my heart
You’re still in my heart Baby
You’re still in my heart
But you can’t take your memory
No you can’t take that part of you from me
You can’t take your memory, it’s so deep in the heart of me
‘Cause you’re still in my heart’
And I’ve still got our son.
I Grieve... 