She’s sat on the steps.  A gentle breeze plays in the dark night.  Her heart is as black and heavy as the imposing sky.  No stars shine their magical light in her world; darkness rules in his ebony robes. She wants to cry but she can’t; there’s nothing left to give.  Inside her the nagging… Continue reading The Night

She’s standing at the cliff top, the wind blustering, making her hair and clothes flow out in waves behind her.  She’s crying long and hard, her eyes red from the biting wind and the salty stinging tears. She’s oblivious to me, standing, watching, making no sound.  Nobody knows she is here except for me.  All… Continue reading Straws

I watch you as you walk from room to room.  The tears are flowing down your cheeks but you seem not to notice.  You are locked away in your own insular world. You wander into the bedroom.  As you enter your step falters.  I notice for the first time that you are trembling.  Violent sobs… Continue reading So Quiet

This place has an eerie quality to it.  You don’t know what made you come back here after all this time; all you do know is that now you are here you wish you weren’t. A year has passed.  One long year and still the pain is as fresh as if it were yesterday.  His… Continue reading Shadow

The weather seems fitting somehow, overcast sky and the relentless drizzle that makes you chilled to the bone.  Black ravens stand huddled round the open grave as the vicar drones on in monotonous tones about how great and good the fallen one was. I stand back, my eyes never leaving the ebony casket, barely visible… Continue reading Secret

She’s sitting cross-legged on the bed, her face marked by the tracks of her tears.  Lying in front of her on the crumpled sheets is a knife; its blade clean and clinical, its handle ebony black. Blind to everything else, she reaches out and lets her fingers caress the cold steel.  A photo balances on… Continue reading Red Rain

I cannot believe the words in front of my eyes.  I blink; once, twice, and yet the image doesn’t change. My heart is racing and breaking at the same time; a feat that before today I would never have thought possible, and the tightness in my chest means that I have to fight for each… Continue reading Peace

I look at you and I can’t believe the feelings that bubble up inside of me; love, warmth, excitement; a myriad of emotions coursing through my veins. The day you came into my life was the day that I was blessed.  Before then I had been just existing; day after day was the same.  Now,… Continue reading Oxygen

I haven’t moved since I got the call.  My hands shake but I will not cry.  I bite my lower lip.  I will not cry. The fact that he’s coming to see me can mean only one thing.  My husband’s not coming home. No more mornings when he brings me breakfast in bed.  No more… Continue reading No More

Sometimes I think I’ve forgotten who the real me is.  It’s been so long since I’ve seen her, since I’ve allowed her out to play so to speak.  I don’t remember when I first started hiding, or what caused me to do so.  Maybe I need to have regression therapy and delve deep into my… Continue reading Masks